Framed and hung, now I can just observe(Completed)

 

  Several meaningful events occurred recently, and I’m recording them here. I’ve made decisions on key personal goals and progressed in other areas. Everything except my sleep schedule is improving. An unexpected meeting with a few individuals helped me discover who I am—or at least who I aspire to be.

This entry began after reconnecting with a friend from a time when I felt lost. She was a world traveler passing through, and our brief exchange left an impression. Though our first meeting felt serendipitous, I didn’t expect to see her again. Yet, she reappeared unexpectedly, and I vividly recalled who she was and how we connected. Her voice startled me; it evoked memories of someone from my past, stirring my emotions. As we grew closer, I met her partner and observed a relationship that seemed perfectly matched. A pang struck me—not out of jealousy, but as a reminder of how I could have acted in my own past relationship. They shared stories of their history and the joy they found in each other, mirroring my own experiences but with a purity and youthfulness we lacked. Their connection showed me that both parties’ shortcomings led to my past relationship’s end, and I’m grateful for having experienced it at all. Coincidentally, this friend hails from across the globe, which might explain the striking similarities. Their bond and desire to be together reflected what could have been for me. I want to see them flourish, as if, in another reality, that could have been us.

I’m forming a routine, alternating between physical exercise and TESOL preparation daily. I’ve also reduced my gaming time, a challenge I couldn’t overcome before. However, this effort has affected my positivity and communication, so I’ll maintain balance through work and conversations with colleagues. I’m committing to fun activities while reserving time for reflection. This journal entry has allowed me to expand my vocabulary and explore my creativity, though the content feels personal and raw. With each entry, I aim to write with greater sophistication.

Thanks to those individuals, I see the person I want to become. I’m someone who embraces challenges, using pride and discipline to overcome temptations. I’ll push my limits to understand human nature while preserving my integrity and goodness. I want to articulate emotions that are hard to express and offer the right words to uplift those I care about. I aspire to be remembered as someone who was there when it mattered. Being a steady presence—like the moon—isn’t enough; I must embody my truest, most vibrant self, full of spirit and ready for challenges. This version of me, a radiant light in any darkness, emerged because of those past connections. Who will I share this self with? Only time will tell. For now, I’ll keep it as a hidden treasure, waiting for someone worthy to discover it.

I hoped to end this entry positively, but a serious reflection demands mention. A belief I’d forgotten resurfaced: “We date to discern if we want to marry.” Now, I must consider whether to continue my current relationship. If I choose to end it, I need to decide how and when to approach that conversation respectfully.