Where should this painting go now?

    More than a month has passed, so it’s time for an update. First and foremost, I am employed again at an easy-going workplace. The low pay comes with low expectations and responsibilities. This allows me to make time for myself to pursue goals that enrich my life and shape the future I wish to create. My relationship has reached another turning point, and I need to make a responsible choice that’s right for both her and me. Academically, I’ve prioritized an exchange program in Japan and hope to be ready when the opportunity arrives.

    My current job as a small hotel receptionist is pretty nice, waking up early has been taking a toll on me but I also realized that interacting with people in the morning as all I needed to stay awake, unless i only slept for around an hour or two. This realization has made me question if I actually am more extroverted than I am introverted, thus I went and took a few online tests again... Still INFP. The monthly pay is enough for me to live semi freely if I at least have a rough plan for my spending outside of the essentials living expanses. The location of the hotel is rather rural and rather far from most tourist hotspots, but it is dirty cheap and the accommodations are more than decent, considering the price. Thus the customers are usually either repeated or reasonable customers who don't mind the slight inconveniences, or just people who are here due to the low price tag. This kind of customer group somehow also resulted in the manager to be more easy-going and very undemanding, which I am very grateful for. This employment has given me the time and courage to look into a stable life style that thrive on teaching alone, as that is a career path I wishes to pursue. And it was also during this time, i was able to befriend someone online who knows a thing or two about Vtubing and I might just make some investment in that as well. It feels like I am building a life with building blocks and they are each coming in slowly. I don't say this as much as I believe it, but the prayers do work but in mysterious ways. So much so that I sometime wonder if your life has been better every night I pray for you and my friends.

    I have made a decision to no longer ask to be reassured no more, I will go about everything with my partner to interact as who I am, if that hurts them in way I don't intend, that'll just the result of what it should have been. This relationship really brought me experiences to fully understand the demons you were fighting, and internalized the reasoning behind several quotes and ideas people shared on relationship and self-improvements. Questions I used to have no clear answer to, such as, "Why assume people who stay friend with their ex to be a bad partner" or "Why is the lost of trust the end to a relationship".  Although there are so much more I learned that can't be put into words at the moment, but I know that I will come out of this a better person than who I was. Usually, this is where I write about this in details but maybe another time.

    I did an interview for online teaching but it seems like I was very well equipped for the job, except my available time is not ideal... Seems like I have to look into that part , too. How to manage my time so that i can make time for teaching.